So basically since the break up, I haven't seen R. He will usually leave the baby at his mother's house and be gone before he sees me. Well tonight he didn't leave in time and we crossed paths. He wanted a kiss and I wouldn't oblige. I did give him a hug, but nothing else. He asked me what he should do because he was in love with me but couldn't have me. If that was the case, you'd be working on you. Your anger, your insecurity, and your mistrust. But you can't tell someone anything when they don't want to see themselves but keep blaming others for their issues...
My weakness was looking at his physical...then I got a little angry because when asked if he was talking to someone else, he couldn't even look me straight in the face and then says what does that matter if we are not together? What matters is the fact he keeps spewing how much he loves me and wants to be with me but hasn't done a thing to resolve his issues. Why should I be mad? It makes me upset to hear you say one thing but do another. Should I be mad? No, it's typical of him. But it is amazing how men (i guess some women too) just bounce from person to person. Only stating things when they think it will get them what they want but not really meaning them. I know what I would like and I don't know if I will ever get it but I can pray can't I?
I am off to read Proverbs 31. I hear so much about it I want to study it. For my sake and the next possible "his" sake...
Until next time......
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