It's not the Midas touch!!!

Boy oh boy... When you keep your focus on Jesus, you really know when you are around, talk to, or associate with the wrong people! I shut myself down this weekend, because of yucky people. Not to God though. I still stayed open to Him. That’s the only way I was going to survive.

 

My youngest son’s father still insists upon lying and trying to cause disruption in my life. I keep telling my sister, keep focusing on God and He will keep your eyes open to those who shouldn’t be in your life. That is so so true. My youngest son’s father approaches me by trying to touch me. First of all, don’t touch me! That’s a disrespectful way to approach a woman. Then he tries to say that I have to have ‘emotions’ because everyone has them. By ‘emotions’ he means, I have to want to have sex with someone. I started to tell him that keeping your focus on Jesus helps, but I would have wasted my breath. He asks “why would God give us these feelings if He didn’t want us to use them?”  I said “because it is to be used in the correct situation. He does not give them to us to sleep with this person and that person. They are to be used with the person He chooses for us to be with.”  With that he proceeds to tell me that God understands what we do and forgives us. I simply looked at him and told him “You don’t know God”.  Because he doesn’t. Nor does he even seem like he is interested in knowing Him.

He wants to try to pick my brain he says because I said physical is not a way to approach me. Not going to happen!

 

It’s a lost cause for him and he doesn’t even know it. We have been apart for about a year and there has been no change in him whatsoever. Me, on the other hand, I have changed, by getting into a more personal relationship with God. This guy has nothing to offer. (He states that’s why he’s not in a relationship because he is a physical person. What kind of nonsense is that?) However, I refuse to have a Godly conversation with him because he really doesn’t care and I don’t want to waste my breath. (Is it bad to be like that?) He has nothing to offer. He states he is looking for an independent woman. But why look to get one when you’re not even independent yourself? All I can do is pray for him and pray that God keeps my eyes open to his untrusting ways. People can change; they just need God in their lives to help them. But sadly a lot of people don’t want to change or don’t know how so they stay the same.

 

Then there is my aunt. This woman can curse up a storm. I can’t take it. She is severely negative and mistrusting of everyone. She believes she knows everyone’s motive behind everything. My youngest son’s father brought him to me without his long sleeve shirt on, just his coat and T-shirt.  My aunt swore up and down that he went over some woman’s house and this woman deliberately took my son’s long sleeve shirt just to prove she was in my son’s father’s life. What?!??!??!!? Are you kidding me? I remained calm and told her I would wait to see what the daycare says. Sure enough, the shirt was at daycare. My son’s dad didn’t pay attention to anything regarding my son’s cubby hole and just out his coat on, with this short sleeve shirt, and took him outside. It was almost 0 degrees that day. Frustration to the highest from him and her.

 

I can’t remain talking to her. For various reasons. I had resolved that the next time she called, I would tell her to stop cursing when talking to me or we would have limited conversations. But I don’t think that will do. I think communication will have to be cut off completely for now. She is way too negative and has too many past issues. They leap on me like bugs and make me feel so yucky! I don’t like feeling like that. And no one can change her but God. But I can’t let her pull me down. Just like I won’t let my youngest son’s father think he will get me into a physical relationship (or any relationship for that matter!)

 

They both were enough for me this past weekend…..I just disconnected.

 

But God…..if it wasn’t for HIM, oh my….I would be off! During my daily reading, it was brought to my attention to read Titus. I had heard something in one of the sermons I listened to during the week, and apparently there was something in there I needed. So I read it.

 

Yes, I needed to read it. Mainly from Titus 1:10-16 but more specifically v15:16(Yes…yes!!)

 

Titus 1:10-16

Rebuking Those Who Fail to Do Good

¹⁰ For there are many rebellious people, full of meaningless talk and deception, especially those of the circumcision group. ¹¹ They must be silenced, because they are disrupting whole households by teaching things they ought not to teach—and that for the sake of dishonest gain. ¹² One of Crete’s own prophets has said it: “Cretans are always liars, evil brutes, lazy gluttons.” ¹³ This saying is true. Therefore rebuke them sharply, so that they will be sound in the faith ¹⁴ and will pay no attention to Jewish myths or to the merely human commands of those who reject the truth. ¹⁵ To the pure, all things are pure, but to those who are corrupted and do not believe, nothing is pure. In fact, both their minds and consciences are corrupted. ¹⁶ They claim to know God, but by their actions they deny him. They are detestable, disobedient and unfit for doing anything good.

God is so good isn’t HE??? Yes He is!

 

I love my auntie, but it will have to be from afar. My son’s father? I love him with the Love of Jesus….But there is still much prayer that I need to do involving him.  I am also praying that there is true forgiveness that I have for him and not me just thinking it is. But then again, God will let me know. I just have to keep my focus on HIM.  You can’t go wrong when doing that!

 

Until next time......God Bless!