I just get so tired of my baby's father. Not being there when he should be. Always talking about how he will make things up or when he gets things together he will do this and that.
It's nothing but bull. When you're selfish, you do for you and don't really think about anyone else. I want to say so many things to him. Like did your dad ever make it up to you? Or one day you might not be able to make anything up. Something that will wake up this guy about taking better care of his children. Yes children.
He used to tell me that when his other son got older, he was not going to do this or that. Right now, he's going through it somewhat with his other son. His other son's mother constantly calls him about what "bad" things his son is doing. He will call his son and his son won't even answer his call. I mean there has to come a point in a person's life when it becomes more about others than it is about them. He is 37 and it is still not about others. Unless there is a benefit to him.
I hate the fact my son doens't have a true father around like he should. I can't always make up for him not being there. It pains me too. Because my baby doens't deserve that. No child derserves that.
I guess I need to write more to get things out that I keep inside. Instead of tearing myself up inside, I gotta let it out and let it go. It's not as easy as it sounds but it has to be done.
I tell you, sometimes it is hard to pray for people. I know it should be done, but sometimes it is very hard. My baby doesn't desevere this. No child deserves it. Then people wonder why there are so many people with issues in the world.
Until next time......
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