Really?????

Oh my goodness. This living in separate households is supposed to work.

But it just seems like it is making him exhibit more issues. I have 3 kids I have to deal with. Not so much the older kids but the baby is more work than anything. He doesn't want to sit still any more.

So this morning my baby wakes up the same time I do. I text my boyfriend good morning and tell him that baby woke up the same time I did. For anyone who has babies, you know getting yourself and the baby ready at the same time, on a time limit, is both time consuming and a little difficult. So I don't even know how much later it was but I look at my phone and realize my boyfriend had texted back. Nothing like wow....his 1st response was "what's up with the late response if up so early?' ....I'm like are you kidding me?

My routine is the same every morning. So on our way to the day care, I let the little one watch Mickey Mouse on my phone. My boyfriend knows this, so why did he text me again and this time say, "Honey we argue about alot of little things, not upset, just want the same respect when I don't respond right away, that's all I ask."

I'm like is he crazy? I spend my mornings getting myself and my baby ready. I take him to day care, etc., so if I can't get to my phone he should understand, don't you think? But no. He does not have anyone to take care of but himself so that's why I don't understand at times why he doesn't answer his phone. And his excuse will be one of these three: 1. I didn't hear it ring. 2. I didn't feel it vibrate . 3. I was letting it charge. (or sometimes, because I know him, he will not answer out of spite) Such ridiculous things to say.
Me on the other hand, I have dinner to cook, a baby to feed, a diaper bag and other things to get ready for the day care in the morning, and clothes to get out for myself and the baby. So if I don't drag my phone into every room with me he knows why.

So even more ridiculous, is tonite. I cook dinner and eat while the baby is taking a nap. So when he wakes, I am preparing his dinner. I can not talk and feed him at the same time so I tell my boyfriend I will call him back when I am done. Well, the baby is not wanting the food. So I have to prepare a bottle and then feed him that. Then we go and prepare him for bed. Then I call my boyfriend back. At this point he is upset because I didn't call him immediately after I fed the baby the bottle, like I said I would. I told him sometimes things happen. I said you know exactly what I am doing over here.

It pisses me off when he gets these idiotic attitudes because they are pointless. It is not my problem he has nothing, and I mean nothing to occupy his time. He doesn't have kids to watch. He doesn't have hobbies. He's supposed to be working on his issues but he seems to be having a problem getting that together and then I have to hear the dumb issues? He's having a fit because he can't live with me like he has done with all his other girlfriends. I think his insecurity is what causes him to live with his girlfriends in the first place. he can keep an eye on them that way. But that also causes issues, because if he something is done that causes a flashback of what his previous girlfriend had done, oh it gets ridiculous. I never understood how someone who has a "seeing is believing attitude" can ever believe in God. It just doesn't seem possible.

He sometimes exhibits childlike behavior. He is getting emotional because he doesn't like us living in different households but instead of expressing it in words, he's acting it out like a child. This is the reason why there are times I am glad we don't live together. There are other reasons but I don't want to go into it now.

I just needed to get his ridiculousness off my chest right now. Sometimes, I think we will not make it. I am not perfect, but the stupid, petty things he tries to argue about are ridiculous. And I have told him, he will never have a caring, loving, positive relationship with anybody if he doesn't fix or get fixed his issues. I will not let him guilt trip me or try to even blame me for us not being in the same household. Not going to happen. He has issues that he knows about but doesn't fix and issues that he doesn't want to admit to. God help him! (because only God can!)

Time will tell what will happen with us. Time will tell. Gotta get back to my baby!

Until next time!