Drifting

Hebrews 3:12-13

New International Version (NIV)

¹² See to it, brothers and sisters, that none of you has a sinful, unbelieving heart that turns away from the living God. ¹³ But encourage one another daily, as long as it is called “Today,” so that none of you may be hardened by sin’s deceitfulness. 


The last devotional I read was about spiritual drifting. Ok so I got to be real here. It got me to thinking about my spiritual drift. One that I didn't want to admit to.

Just like the devotional stated, it is a gradual wandering away from God. I was where I was supposed to be. I was doing what I was supposed to do, for the most part. I was establishing my relationship with God. It was a wonderful thing. 

Then when I least expected it, a man entered my life. He was so nice and a good gentleman. He exhibited some signs of his life having God in it, but if I had of looked deeper, or just plan kept my eyes on God, I would have seen otherwise. 

Don't get me wrong, he believes in God, but there are so many people who say they believe in God but don't have a relationship with Him. But ask them and they will say He understands me. I am not one to argue with them on that point so I just leave it be.


Ok, so we started seeing each other. Spending alot of time together. We would have conversations about God and the things He had done in our lives. So subtly things were turning in another direction. Then one day, a line was crossed and that was that. (oh believe me, I was still going to church. We were even praying with the boys) But somewhere in there it changed. And to this day, I wish it hadn't. Don't get me wrong, I had some good times in there and eventually had my 3rd son, which I will never change for the world, but none of it was done the way God would have wanted it done. There are consequences to drifting. I had lost my connection to God. That was the worst thing in the world. 


Then of course, issues started creeping into my relationship with my boyfriend. I found out alot about him. He;'s very insecure, needs affection as a way of telling him that he's cared about.....just alot of things I definitely was not prepared for. 


All of which I would not have been through had I done things the right way. 


Spiritual drifting causes your spiritual ears to become deadened. Your heart hardens to the things of God. (Mine not completely because I would still say things I remembered from the bible to help my boyfriend out) . Eventually I avoided situations that might have reawaken my conscience and stirred my spirit to repentance. I didn't want to hear others say much about God.

Then one day you begin to gradually 'wake up'. I know my life is not complete without God and I know I need to get back to my relationship with Him. No way will it be easy. My sister and I discussed how we didn't want some of the things we knew a relationship with God would bring. (Trials and tribulations) But if you think about it, those trials and tribulations will only build your relationship with God (you definitely will depend on Him and talk and cry out to Him more) and build what He needs in you.

I had been reading devotionals and listening to Joyce Meyers, but the other day is when I actually, for the first time in a long time, picked up the bible and read it. Doing things on-line is cool, but it's a whole different story to have that bible, His words, in your hands.

Not living with my boyfriend will definitely help me in seeking my relationship with God. I also told my boyfriend that my priority was getting my relationship with God back, whether he was on board or not. I will not let him be hinder me. No way, no how.

Until next time!