Not again!

Really....I'm tired of this part as well.

It has been a pretty decent day. Lounged around for a while. Very tired, plus I had a very painful headache last night and one around 6am this morning. It's time to go grocery shopping. I make my list, everything is OK. Mind you I haven't eaten all day and neither has my boyfriend and it is now almost 3pm. We are at the store and I see his attitude is a little off already. I pay no attention to it.

While we are down on of the aisles, he is standing towards the middle of the aisle so I tell him to scoot over a little because there was a woman wanting to get by and there was a cart that was behind him helping to block his way. I don't know what he think he heard but he decides to start fussing about it. Hold up man, I didn't blame you for being in the way I just suggested you scoot over a little and told you there was a cart blocking behind you as well. It was enough to make him become a belligerent idiot. And I am putting things so mildly.

He starts to try getting louder and telling me he said to hurry up. I am trying so hard to keep my composure because I can let alot of bad things fly out of my mouth, but I didn't. I did call him ignorant because that's exactly what he was being. You know what the problem was? He hadn't eaten all day and when he doesn't eat, he gets an attitude. This is the dumbest thing in the world. He has the capability to eat however he seems to wait until either someone else decides to cook something to eat or someone else decides to buy something to eat. Really? Are you serious? Are you telling me he was too lazy to get himself up and make himself some breakfast or something to eat and he'd rather wait all day, knowing he will get an attitude, and take it out on someone else? YES.

Somewhere earlier in our relationship, I began to feel like he always purposely waited until he was in my presence to eat. One thing he knows about me is I like to eat. However, don't wait all day when you are by yourself and capable of getting something to eat, and don't, and then expect me to get you something to eat when you are around me. Then what made matters worse to me was when we were apart, he would always want to know what I ate. Seriously.....everyday he would ask me what I ate. (whenever I was not with him). He gets off work at almost 2pm and I am still at work. I go to lunch sometimes between 1 and 2. He would call me and ask me what I ate for lunch. then he would ask me I got him anything. Excuse me????!??!?!

He works earlier than I do so he is capable of getting himself something to eat. Why would you eat what little you did during the day and then expect me to buy something for you on my lunch? And then try to say I wasn't thinking about you? Are you kidding me? Unfortunately, I am not kidding on this. I had to resort to stop getting myself alot of foods out and telling him to stop asking me what I eat. That's not conversation. I have never had someone so much into what I am eating everyday. I worked hard to get to where I am job wise and financial wise. It really is not my issue that he didn't work like that. But by no means does that mean I support him. And I am not sure where in the world he got the idea that just because I don't buy him food or a pair of house shoes, that means I don't think about him. I am capable of thinking about him without purchasing a dang on thing!  You can not be the head of a household if you expect the woman to be the breadwinner. And during this relationship, I have had to become blunt with him on these things. Sorry if it is a blow to his manhood, but I don't think a man should expect a woman to buy him a thing he can't seem to get on his own. Oh I am going off track again. (There are so many things that have come up in this relationship that it is not funny)

So now in the grocery store, we are no longer talking. We are not walking together. We got back to my house and he needs my truck to jump his car (this is like a regular thing for him. If he had a better paying job with more money, he would be able to get things taken care of. (But there is something wrong when you have to continuously try to get a man (?) to understand that he needs to step up his game in order to be a better provider) Yet again, another story.

So he took the baby and left to see his mother. I am sooo glad too. I didn't even want to be around him. I'm pretty sure he;ll get his mom to get him something to eat. She likes to cook so she always has something to eat. All this could have been avoided if had of just gotten his butt up and fixed himself something to eat. Really!

Until next time........SMH