2013

2013 is a new year. Thank you Jesus for letting me get to this point.

But this year is supposed to be different. I am trying to make sure of that.

Yes, I am still trying to make it work with the baby's father. Part of me says "why, dummy?" another part says I should for the baby's sake. (that's another whole conversation!)

We have started to go to counseling. This is the last straw. If this doesn't work, we are done, done. We have both agreed on that. I say if the counseling doesn't work, at least she will be able to get him to look at himself. Our first session was just like that. A lot of things I told him before, she was telling him also. Like I said if nothing happens for us, at least he will be seeing himself and hopefully that will help him for the next relationship he gets in,

A lot of people came to work sick over the holidays and now I am sick. I am off work today but needed to get something off my chest. When I am sick, and probably any other person, I am not in the mood to converse. So I am waiting for the baby's father to get off work so he can watch the baby while I try to get better. He's starting stupid stuff already. Since I said no conversation, he asks if I am going to be having favoritism. What? Ok 1st off, my 2 kids are old enough that when I say I don't want to talk, they honor that. Majority of the time. Kids are kids and they most definitely need to bother you sometime out of the day. But he's a grown man, are you seriously going to get upset if I answer a question or 2 from them? Then he says if no convo, why am I coming over? Uh duh...to watch your son!!!!!! Really? you asked that question? I told him if he was coming over with drama, then don't come over. I am sick and don't need the xtra drama. I will find a way to be sick and take care of my kids all in one. Moms do so many things dads don't do. (more on that later). I ended up hanging up on him because he kept sounding like he was trying to start an argument. He could have chosen his words better. One thing about him, he doesn't listen. The counselor told him we need to stop with all the texting because it causes things to be taken wrong. So what does he do? Continues to text instead of talking on the phone. She also told him to write in a journal...but he wouldn't do it because it didn't seem like it would work. How would you know if you never tried it....both I and the counselor chimed at the same time. Same time people! This is going to be a hard thing to do and I am not positive about the outcome of us.

Until next time.....